{Still here...Hurting}

I sit here in front of my computer trying find something to occupy my mind because it hurts swallow & speak. I wanted to go to a immediate care like was available where I used to live or even a free clinic but of course because we make just a bit too much no one will see me without cash up front, which I don't have because I just put the last of my money into my gas tank to get the kids to and from school. I don't blame them and really it wouldn't matter if they would see me or not because I can't purchase any medicine needed until after William gets paid.

So here I sit, hurting trying to figure out projects to keep me busy, not thinking about hurting. One project is my Valentine party for the kids and hopefully my friend, Carla's family. I have a nice little arsenal of crafts that I am going to provide for the kids. Decorating cookies will be a project for them too. Heart shaped of course. Fun cards to give/send to grandparents and a fun poster project that the parents can hang on their walls, reminding them of how small their kids once were. It really should be fun. Not quite sure on what I will fix but I will try to incorporate hearts and or the color red.

I am really looking forward to the get together. It should be fun, for both the parents and the kids. At least in my mind it should be. (fingers crossed)

Well, I need to go take care of a fight that the kids are having...why can't they just be good when it hurts for me to talk? I think they do it to punish me....*sigh*

{Spring Swap}

I am so excited to share this swap! It's being hosted by Angie at The American Homemaker blog. I don't get to do these swaps much but I am excited to help participate in this swap. For more details and how to enter just click on the "Spring Swap" image in the sidebar. Enter before Feb. 6th if you want to participate.

Thank you Angie for hosting this fun Swap!!

{helpful videos}

Parables & messages that ring true to me and help guide my actions & remind me of how I should act.


this one is from seminary - one of my favorite movies we watched - it's called "spiritual crocodiles".


The parable of the Mediator.


Worthy thoughts

{What's wrong with this picture?}

Below was taken from Jan's blog...she said it so eloquently...

Warning: Harsh verbage and reading ahead. I am just saying my thoughts.
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• A woman who is 8 1/2 months pregnant, walks into a gas station restroom, gives birth to the baby, wraps it in toilet paper, and proceeds to drop the baby in a dumpster nearby. Through DNA testing and our Nations justice system, she is found guilty, convicted and sent to jail for murdering her child.
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• A woman has 5 dogs. She has them locked in a small area near her home, and is slowly starving them to death due to severe neglect. A neighbor calls and reports her to the police. They come and make a case against her. She is given a huge fine and sent to jail to serve a small term on the conviction of mistreating and neglect of animals.
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• A woman is 8 1/2 months pregnant and decides she doesn't want the baby anymore. She walks into a respected hospital where she is induced into labor, and has her baby killed while being born. The abortion fails and the baby is born medically sound. The baby is then placed in a room with no medical attention or nutrition, and is left to slowly die. A man who supports this kind of treatment, is found guiltless, elected President of our country, and we pay for his salary.
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I read where we need to move on with our thinking when it comes to the Freedom of Choice Act. I hash it over in my mind. I am in concrete. I am stuck and can't move on. This is the area I don't support and where I publicly step outside the chanting of "Yes We Can" for our country. Because quite frankly,
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"No I Can't" [ www.fightfoca.com] It's at our doorstep.

I know that because I oppose the freedom of choice act that some think I am stuck in the dark ages of woman being forced to produce spawn because their husbands want to propagate their name. Well frankly, that is not the case. I do believe a woman has the right to choose, just not the right to murder or use abortion as BIRTH CONTROL. I understand if a woman was raped and feels the need to rid herself of what had happened to her once she found out, I don't necessarily agree with it but it is her right because she was violated in such a horrible way. I understand if a woman has to make the medical choice to abort because it would harm her life. BUT I do not agree with the woman who is in her own little world and sees abortion as birth control and can't see that she is killing a life because SHE couldn't keep her legs closed. I DO NOT agree with the woman who "CHANGED" her mind late in her pregnancy and decided to let her child DIE, because she decided her life would be too changed, instead of putting that baby up for adoption.

In my mind, if you decide to kill a perfectly healthy baby, it's murder and you should be treated as such. How is it that we as a country, don't believe in the death penalty for KNOWN murderers but will condemn an innocent to death in the most horrific way...HOW IS THAT RIGHT?

{if your HAPPY and you know it, clap your hands!}

I had a wonderful visit from my "NEW" visiting teachers. Not new as in I am new and needed some but because they are new in the ward just like me! They both are young mothers too and are sooo nice! I had the most wonderful visit with them. It is going to be so nice to have visit teachers again that I can relate to!!

Now if only I could find out who my visit teaching companion is and what our "route" looks like. I have missed visit teaching as the last few wards they kinda put me on "hold" because they said I had too much on my plate. I know I did but I enjoyed getting out and visiting other sisters and I am looking forward to doing it again!!

I have had a few visit teachers like in the movie but most were like the last visit teachers. Enjoy!