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Wow, it doesn't really seem like I was gone a whole seven months, but I was. There were several factors in my sudden disappearance from blog land one being that I was over stressed at home with so many people living with us and between the chaos they all brought and the upheaval it brought into my home I think I started to pull further and further into myself and away from the things and people I enjoyed.
I know I have depression tendencies but can mostly stave them off with some "ME" time, although now I realize I never got my "ME" time but at the time I couldn't seem to figure out why I was spiraling. I pulled away from everything, including photography and my camera. My crafting suffered as well and it didn't help that my carpal tunnel was making it harder to create the items I love which in turn made me sink further into my own self pity. Of course this only hindered everything else in my life too.
I didn't realize how much my life was being bogged down by the constant stream of guests in and out of our home until after they were all gone and suddenly I could breathe again and finally my house was my home and sanctuary again! It's only been a few months of NO GUESTS but I can feel myself getting back to normal. I am even picking up my camera again editing them in a timely manner.
My depression is still here but it's fading and though I know it won't ever fade and will come back in spurts, I don't want to feel so alone while surrounded by so many again. I haven't felt that way in a very long time and I don't ever want to feel that way again. Slight depression is what I am more capable of dealing with and living with and can manage. What I was mired in during the past seven months was exhausting and overall draining. I'm glad I am pulling out of it.
My goal is to start posting once or twice a week and work my way back up to daily posts about the happenings in my chaotic little world. I also hope to get back into the things that I pulled away from during the past seven months.
I know the next few months will be a crazy as I try to get into a homeschooling routine with the kids and get myself back into a good frame of mind to enjoy my life to the fullest again. I am hopeful and know because I can breathe again life will become easier and the goals I set will be achieved.
So starts my journey to a better mental state, better health and overall happiness and joy for life that I lost and want to regain back.
