{Self Love}

Hi, I'm Arya and I have just turned THIRTY THREE!!! I am happy to say that fashion wise I finally bought a pair of "jeggings" (jeans meets stretch pants) for the first time and I normally wouldn't wear them but stepped out of my comfort zone and took a leap on a black pair. They are comfortable and I LOVE how I look in them. I also LOVE that I am starting to feel comfortable in my skin and not just feel like some skinny girl trapped in a fat girl body - I actually like how my style is evolving and how I am now able to wear more fitting clothes that show my curves instead of wearing too big clothes that make me look like I threw a king size blanket on as a shirt.

I am enjoying life and trying not to let the little stuff slow me down and sure I want to lose weight and I actually have lost 15 lbs so far but regardless of if I make it to my goal or not I am happy with the body I have. It's amazing and gave life to my four babes, how could I not love it.

Thirty three has started off with a huge bang of SELF LOVE!! Stop the negative/hate talk in your head and start to replace it with positive/loving talk. As women I find we tend to be harder on ourselves and more critical of our bodies because of all the excessive media out there talking about how we need to be a size 2 to be happy. Well, I am here to tell you that you don't. Be happy with yourself and others will want to be around you because of it. 

Just be happy with where your at, even if you want to change it, love yourself at whatever stage your at in your journey and remember your not alone. Some days are going to be harder then others but always try to say something nice about your body before you go to bed and again when you wake up and soon those negative thoughts will fade and be replaced with wonderful positive thoughts and one day you will just look at yourself and know how beautiful you really are.

I have been married to my hubby for almost 13 years and for most of that time I hated how I looked and hated the curves and rolls that seemed to take over my body, especially after being pregnant nine times. And I would make comments about how hideous I was or how cow like I had become and it drove my husband nuts because he only ever saw me as sexy and beautiful and couldn't understand why I didn't see what he saw.

Now, after all that time, I see that I am sexy and beautiful and worthy of his love and worthy of my own love too. I now knows and see what my loving husband has always seen. A FREAKINGLY FABULOUS CURVY WOMAN!! 

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am LOVED. I am WIFE. I am MOTHER. I AM DESIRED!!

{BACK from CRAZY}

So I am back after falling off the blog-o-sphere for over a month, (please forgive me). It's been crazy since halloween when my uncle Clay had a heart attack and I got a call that his heart kept having to be restarted and that he was being taken to the hospital. Pretty scary stuff since he had to be placed in a state of hypothermia because they wanted to preserve brain function. 

My Aunt and Uncle from Montana (my uncle's brother and his wife) came out to check on him and make sure he was ok because there for a while we didn't know if he was even going to make it. Like I said it was a scary time but it was so good to see them.

They had Clay out for several days before they brought him back to see if he was "all there" before they could do open heart surgery. Well he woke up and WAS "all there" so he had a heart bypass. 

During this time while having guests my toliet and plumbing decides to go haywire and I end up spending all and then more of what we had saved up to get it fixed but it was all cleared up before Clay was released from the hospital. He stayed in our guestroom for 2 weeks then moved back into his travel trailer in our driveway and is doing much better and recovering very well.

Shortly after Clay moved back to his trailer I cleared out the guestroom of the guest bed, my craft stuff and my computer and moved Aaron into it so he could have his own space. I then moved the girls out of their room and moved Sam into there since it was the next smallest room and then moved the girls into our room and moved our room into the boys old room since they had been sharing the largest room. 

So for a bit I was busy with moving rooms and organizing them and then I started my holiday sewing and created a cute elephant pattern (which took 3 attempts to get just right) and a monster pattern that I love and may one day share but I am a bit too busy to figure it all out right now.

black elephant was the first try, the white elephant was the 2nd and the red one was my last attempt.

I am just prepping for the holiday's now and trying to get all my packages finished so I can mail out what needs mailed and wrap what needs wrapped since it's only like 14 days until Christmas. I haven't even gotten my christmas cards ready to mail, but I did manage once my uncle was feeling up to it, to get our family picture finished so I could shove 4x6 prints into the cards of our family. I did the exposure and got the position right so my uncle could click the shutter. I think it turned out great considering I had to photoshop 3 heads and move my husband closer because he decided to stand like 2 feet away from everyone else, but at least I got them all done, at least until next year.